the old man

Its 0:30 am and I am still awake. I just got home from babysitting. I was asked to babysit the girl tonight and as I love being with her, of course I said yes :)
We watched some "Mogli " and then I read her a Dutch book. It was about a mouse thats going on a holiday to the sea. Cute story :) Then I joined her in bed and waited til she fell asleep. I spent my time reading a German magazine and left about 11pm. I had some strange days lately, well I feel ill and also my motivation isnt very high at the moment. I feel quite useless and a bit sad.. could be just a phase (also the grey weather adds to it)... anyways, today was one of those "down" days and when I left, on my way to the tram to go home, I passed by an old man who seemed to be homeless and asking for money. I usually give some money, so I was looking for some cash to give to him. I didnt have a lot on me and I told him, I am sorry its not that much. He was so humble and told me to not worry, I can give it to him next time!?? I ended up emptying all my pockets and probably gave him about 2 Euro. And honestly, he saved my day... I felt I did something that mattered...its kinda stupid, isnt it? When I left I wished him a nice evening and he said: "Now its my turn"... I didnt ask what he meant and now my brain is full of thoughts... but somehow, I feel like he meant, that now its his turn to help someone else...maybe I am totally wrong and imagining things but I immediately thought about the movie "Pay it Forward", one of my favourite movies. In the movie a little boy creates an idea for changing the world and he believes that every one should do a good deed for 5 people in need and those 5 people for other 5 and so on... I always thought that this is a wonderful idea but I am almost sure that human kind would abuse it :( So maybe, haha... thats what the old man meant??? Do you think I am mad? ;) My mind works in mysterious ways ;) Whatever it meant...I think it was a strange but also interesting encounter...

Good night old man.